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The Best Mistake I Ever Made

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I entered the room shaking like a leaf, cheeks flushed. I had prepared well, yet felt no confidence. I was striving to rely upon the Holy Spirit. However, I was not experiencing the boldness that is ours in Christ. I glanced out the window into the parking lot and viewed many more women entering the building than I had anticipated, most with gray hair. Instead of being encouraged, my anxiety increased.

After years of rebellion, I returned to Jesus (my first love) at age 21. At age 22 I met, fell in love with, and married the kindest man I had ever encountered, who happened to be an insanely good looking pastor.

 

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(YES, a bird pooped in my hair on our first date.)

For his second pastoral call, God planted us in Hammond, IN when I was 27 years old, as my husband accepted the senior pastor role at Covenant Presbyterian Church. By this time I had been in inductive Bible study for 5 years but had never taught one. I did not believe I had the gift of teaching.

Because I felt the void of a weekly ladies study, I inquired about someone leading one. The previous pastor’s wife had taught one, but when she left the study ended. Through prayer and counsel, I realized the Lord was leading me to take on the role of women’s Bible study teacher. With fear and trembling, I sent a proposal to the Christian Education Committee.  However, due to my insecurities, I proposed a young women’s study as that was a little less intimidating than the thought of teaching women older than I was.

Back to that “best mistake I ever made” thing,  I ended up offending most of the older women in the church, many of whom desired to come.  The committee came back and encouraged me to begin the study but invite all of the women in the church.

By God’s grace hurt feelings were healed and the study was comprised of mainly “older” women. I learned invaluable lessons from these dear ladies and they helped me discover I did indeed have the gift of teaching.

Step out in faith and let God take care of the outcome!

“A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new.” Albert Einstein

The following is a photo of the several of the beautiful souls who helped shape me.

 

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What is the best mistake you ever made and how did God use it? Who came alongside you to help you overcome your fears? I would love to hear from you!

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His Sheep Hear His Voice

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“My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me;”
John 
10:27

I was a newly wedded pastor’s wife, recently returned from a delightful honeymoon.  I was enjoying some early morning reading time, on a hot South Texas day.  While perusing 1 Timothy Chapter 1 in my Bible, suddenly verse 15 leapt off the page.

“Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst.”  (NIV)

The Holy Spirit impressed upon my heart, that like Paul, He was going to use my past to glorify His name, and help others. At times He chooses the “worst of sinners” to minister for Him.  The impression was so very clear, I was suddenly filled with joy and anticipation.  I had been so ashamed of my background.  Constantly plagued by the taunting of the evil one.  “How can you be a pastor’s wife?”  “If people only knew….”
Yet for this brief moment the fear and shame were gone.  The veil departed and I distinctly saw a purpose for my painful past.  Yes, I was called to be a pastor’s wife, just like Paul was called to be an Apostle, in spite of my/his past.

I excitedly called to tell someone close to me, when she quickly shut me down.  “No way.” Your past is just that, the past.”  “Leave it there.”  “Keep it private, or people will use it against you.”

And just like that, the euphoria was gone.  The lies returned.  I shut my mouth.

Friends that was 24 years ago, and God recently brought that day back to me, as clear as if it were yesterday!

I am His sheep, I did hear His voice 24 years ago, and I will follow!  I have also learned a valuable lesson.  When the Good Shepherd speaks to our hearts through His Spirit, that doesn’t mean it is going to happen that day, or that year.

Jesus was 30 years old before His ministry was launched.

Moses was 80.

If you’ve heard His voice, wait for His timing, then He will give you grace to obey and follow Him! But remember, His voice will never contradict His Word.

“There comes a time to stop fearing God’s plan—a flash-point where we stop thinking about ourselves and we start thinking about what we can do for others.”
Jo Ann Fore, When a Woman Finds Her Voice

I’ve found my voice.  You can too.  Take the pledge!

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