Monthly Archives: July 2014

Why I Write (A Blog Hop)


I was invited to this lovely party by Sarah from her blog, “Redemption Diary.”  We met through Jo Ann Fore’s Book Launch Team. She writes with transparency about re-marriage, parenting, and helping your child through trauma. Please check her out!

Now for the questions

1) What am I writing or working on?

I am currently working on launching my ministry, Securely Held, LLC. I have a true heart for encouraging women of all ages and stages to be delivered from the bondage of their past and walk boldly in freedom. John 8:36 expresses my passion: “If the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.” Sadly, I was a Christian and pastor’s wife for over 20 years before realizing I was not enjoying this freedom, but was still chained by demonic strongholds. Securely Held is a Biblical writing, speaking, and lay-counseling ministry. My desire is to help women discover the abundant life Christ promised us, through His death and resurrection.

2) How does my work differ from others of its genre?

I am a Reformed Pastor’s Wife, with a Baptist then conservative Presbyterian background; I share how I was delivered from demons (as a Christian!). Um, how unique is that? Through the casting out of demons, who gained entrance through childhood sexual abuse, participating in a demonic seance in middle school, a six-year tumultuous relationship with an abusive demonized boyfriend, and teenage drug use. Even as Believer I was held captive by demonic lies expressed through overwhelming social anxiety, suppressed anger and obsessive people pleasing. I also write as one thriving (though not always physically) with an autoimmune disorder as well as a seizure disorder. (Hey, being able to drive is over-rated!)

3) Why do I write what I do?

Only because Jesus has called me to! Otherwise, I would be like Jonah, running as far from Ninevah as possible. Remember, a recovering people pleaser who used to turn 50 shades of red if someone just asked me my name….doesn’t just choose to write about being delivered from demons. Were it not for the precious blood of Jesus, the spiritual oppression my family and I experience daily would cause me to bury my head in the sand. Viewing the bondage I see women walking in, I cannot keep silent! I must share the freedom that is their’s for the taking.

4) How does my writing process work?

For me, I don’t consider myself an amazing writer. But I serve an amazing God who has called me to share my story. I always begin with prayer asking the Lord to glorify His name and send the Holy Spirit to anoint my words. He always shows up!

Now for the fun part! I’m introducing two bloggers I’ve met this past year and I simply love their hearts. I think you will too.

First up is Danaye Robertson. I met Danaye when we both participated on the When a Woman Finds Her Voice Book Launch team. I also had the privilege of meeting Danaye in person at a retreat for the team. Danaye has a beautiful, giving spirit.  Below is a bit more about Danaye.


I am a blessed 42 year-old wife to my high school sweetheart, Tony, and mother of a 20 year old daughter, Kierstyn. Just to keep things interesting I also have Lupus, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and I am a Thyroid Cancer Survivor.

I have chosen to take an adventurous journey with our wonderful Heavenly Father. A journey that is sometimes painful, sometimes wild, usually never easy and yet should always be joyful.

I am so grateful you have stopped by and I pray each post will provide you with a thought to ponder and be an inspiration for you to continue your own journey.

I am extremely thankful He fills our cup new every morning with HIS GRACE & MERCIES!

My Cup of Grace

Next up is Gay Idle. I met Gay when we both participated on the When a Woman Finds Her Voice Book Launch team. Gay and I also traveled to Johnson City, Tennessee together for a cozy Book Launch Retreat. What a wonderful time we had! She is a wonderful prayer warrior and writer. Below is a bit more about Gay.

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Gay Idle is a self-proclaimed Pastor’s Wife Extraordinaire…not because of anything special she has done but because of this extraordinary journey that God has brought her to and through.  A dedicated wife, mother of two and happy grandmother to one, Gay serves alongside her husband, Pastor Rod Idle, at Journey Community church in Fernley, Nevada, where she leads Journey Women’s Ministry.  She is the founder of, Cloud By Day Ministries, an outreach ministry designed to bring the unconditional love of Christ to the women who work in the brothels of Northern Nevada.

Gay is also a contributing author in the book, Bloom Where You’re Planted: Exploring Stories of encouragement and strength in the lives of women in church planting. You can also find her writing at

Mawage. Mawage is wot bwings us togeder tooday. Mawage, that bwessed awangment, that dweam wifin a dweam…

imageThis post was written two years ago on our 23rd anniversary. Just thought I would repost for our 25th!

Securely Held

Twenty Three years ago today I married my pastor and best friend.  Happy Anniversary, Alan!

The following is an excerpt from Chapter Four of my book:

Chapter 4:  Life in a Fishbowl

“For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”(2 Timothy 1:7)

Dating a minister was quite a fishbowl existence for this 22 yr old girl who continued to struggle with paralyzing shyness and social anxiety.  Only by God’s grace did I get through the public courtship, engagement, and marriage.  One Sunday during the time before our first date, my sister Sharyn and I decided to stay for a fellowship luncheon.  There “happened” to be an empty seat beside mine.  Alan sat down and began conversing with us.  At one point he turned to me and asked what I had been studying that week.  My mind was…

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A Bond-slave Of Jesus: Choosing Faith Over Fear


“Behold, the bond-slave of the Lord; be it done to me according to your word.” Luke 1:38 (NASB)

The above words were spoken by: Mary, the mother of Jesus, after the angel of the Lord appeared to her. He proclaimed that by the power of the Holy Spirit, she would conceive the Son of God. 

Yet her initial response to the angelic being was one of fear.  Luke says she was “greatly troubled.”  However, Mary chose faith over fear and declared herself a “bond-slave of the Lord,” and submitted to God’s will over her own.  The definition of a bond-slave is:

 One who gives himself up to another’s will; those whose service is used by Christ in extending and advancing his cause among men; devoted to another to the disregard of one’s own interests   (

 Mary gave herself up to her Lord’s will. She disregarded her own interests for His.

Are we willing to do the same?

 Will we choose faith over fear?

 May we proclaim like Mary, “Be it done to me according to your word.”

 What are your fears?

 (Remember the words of Holly Gerth: (Best-selling author of You’re Already Amazing as well as several other books with Revell.)

 “You’re more courageous than you know!”