Monthly Archives: September 2012





Intimacy with the indwelling Holy Spirit.

This was not my daily experience 13 years ago. However, by God’s grace and the redemptive power of Christ’s shed blood, these qualities permeate my being today. My narrative begins with my troubled childhood and adolescence. I describe how I unknowingly opened my heart in ways that allowed the enemy access to enter and wreak havoc with my physical and emotional health. I openly expose the intense demonic oppression that plagued me for years, and the incredible message of how Christ broke this bondage. My desire is that my transparent account of my healing and restoration will encourage women who are struggling and have no idea that demonic oppression could be at the root of their suffering. I will describe the signs of spiritual warfare and a plan to fight it. Each chapter will end with a short Bible study in the format of scripture passages with questions for digging deeper, and will close with a practical application. The prayer I carry in my heart is that I may be an instrument of God on this earth, helping other hurting women claim their inheritance of peace and joy that our Savior alone can offer.
“To God be the glory for the things He has done.”
Will you join me in my efforts to have my book published? Please “like” my Facebook page, Securely Held. Please “follow” my blog…..and “follow” me on twitter. Please ask your friends to do the same! Most importantly please PRAY for God’s will to be done and for protection for my family and me.

 “That soul that on Jesus has leaned for repose, I will not, I will not desert to it’s foes; That soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake, I’ll never, no never, no never forsake.”

How Firm a Foundation “Keen”

Breaking free from the clutches of the evil one through the blood of Jesus

Seizures. Muscle weakness. Nausea. Slurred speech.  Questions. Searching. Normal neurology reports.  Baffled medical specialists.  This was my life for ten years as I battled puzzling  symptoms with no medical cause.  Giving up on discovering an organic root, my focus turned to the spiritual realm, as church was the primary place these bizarre symptoms manifested themselves.  The next few years were a fight to engage the emotional and spiritual aspects of my demonic oppression.  My story describes this journey of discovering the cleansing power of God’s forgiveness and love in a deeper way than I had ever known.  As the strongholds of Satan were called forth and rebuked, sweet peace and humility began to permeate my spirit.  A gradual relief from the constant anxiety and obsession of pleasing others swept over me as I was restored and healed from the inside out. In writing my personal memoir my goal is to tackle the often-misunderstood and widely misrepresented reality of demonic oppression and how the enemy gained a foothold in my life through childhood sexual abuse, teenage drug use, and dabbling in the occult.  My goal is to bring biblical balance and practical application to anyone who is seeking victory form demonic oppression and the ensuing mental bondage.  My hope is to help any woman who is wounded and struggling to claim her inheritance of peace and joy that only Christ can offer.

Please pray with me that the Lord will provide a publisher to take my story!

I decided to re-blog a post from July 12th. Would love your thoughts. If you like what you read….please click “follow”!

Securely Held

“Be strong in the Lord, and in the strength of His might. Put on the full armor of God, that you may be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.” (Ephesians 6:10–12)

Through the years, many dear friends had mentioned the possibility that my perplexing physical issues might have something to do with spiritual warfare. Frankly, these suggestions puzzled and frightened me. I was well acquainted with the story of Job from the Scriptures; however, I believed that after Christ’s resurrection, Satan no longer had the power and authority to torment Christians in the way he tormented Job. I was terrified to think that demons might have the ability to wreak such havoc on…

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For Such a Time as This


For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”
Esther 4:14 (NIV)

As I have said before, writing about my experiences with spiritual warfare is not exactly “safe” subject matter.  I know my life would be much easier in ways if I just wrote about: “sugar & spice & everything nice.”  Yet I am convinced that the LORD has called me, “for such a time as this.”  Do I struggle with fear and doubt when I see my family and me hit with warfare on every side….knowing if I just kept my mouth shut we would’t be such a target?  Do I ever just want to withdraw? Absolutely!  

Prayers appreciated for me to shake off my fears and put my trust in Him.  A chaplain was quoted as saying:
“The safest place to be is in the center of God’s will.” Please pray that that is where I make my abode!

       “And though this world, with devils filled, 
   should threaten to undo us, 
   we will not fear, for God hath willed 
   his truth to triumph through us.  
   The Prince of Darkness grim, 
   we tremble not for him; 
   his rage we can endure, 
   for lo, his doom is sure; 
   one little word shall fell him.”  
(Martin Luther, “A Mighty Fortress is our God”)