Greater is He that is in me!

Securely Held! My Journey Through Spiritual Warfare

“Be strong in the Lord, and in the strength of His might. Put on the full armor of God, that you may be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.” (Ephesians 6:10–12)

I have the privilege of being a pastor’s wife to a strong, godly man. We have read and studied the above verses many times throughout our years of ministry, yet one Sunday morning in 2003 they came alive. That was the moment a dear group of comrades and I realized the intense physical “episodes” I had been experiencing were indeed “not against flesh and blood.” We were involved in an unseen war against “the spiritual forces of wickedness.”

I would like to be able to say that we discovered my problems were solely spiritual warfare and were finally defeated, or that we were brought to the realization that it was all just mental stress that could be cured through counseling and medication, or that in the end we discovered it was indeed some mysterious disease explained in medical books, for which I am undergoing effective treatment. Yet the reality is that God has revealed to us through this now thirteen-year journey that it is a combination of all three. So, I am still on a mission- a mission to share my story of the physical, mental, and spiritual aspects of my problems. Yes, I am a Christian. Yes, I am a pastor’s wife. And, yes, I have problems.

It is with joy, as well as trepidation, that I share my story. A snapshot of our smiling family in our Christmas photo portrays near “perfection.” A handsome, dignified-looking father and his mirthful wife, four gorgeous offspring, and a cheerful dog to boot! Why spoil the façade? I believe my Lord is calling me to step out in faith to help raise awareness of the intense spiritual attacks Satan launches, especially against those in public ministry. I want to expose how the “holes” in my life experiences opened the door to demonic oppression. By God’s grace, those “holes” have been filled with the blood of Jesus. As author and teacher Sue Jakes has said, “Due to the fall, this world is not a playground, it is a battlefield!” I believe Christ wants to use our journey to advance His kingdom. He is building His church, “and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it” (Matthew 16:18).

Note: This is an exerpt from the Introduction to my book project.

12 thoughts on “Greater is He that is in me!

    1. securelyheld Post author

      Thanks friend! When you go to my blog, look at the bottom right hand corner and you should see a button that says “follow.” Click on that and let me know if you have any trouble.

  1. Stefanie Fanger

    WOW, Aunt Cheryl!!!!! Just WOW!!!! I can totally relate to so much of what you said. Through my battles of health problems, although, they have actually found actual causes for me issues, but also the horrors of my childhood and adolescence and then early adulthood in my first marriage and being a single mother until where I am today. I struggle with spiritual warfare and have to lay it all at His feet at His alter. It is a daily and constant struggle. Anyway, not to take away from ANY of what you have gone through, just explaining that this is AMAZING and really speaks to me as well!!! I have clicked follow your blog, I have liked it and also signed up for the daily emails to follow it. I am unbelievably PROUD of you for stepping out and sharing your testimony to help others like me!!! I had the priveledge of attending a Woman Thou Art Loosed women’s conference held by Bishop T.D. Jakes last October and the guest speaker the 2nd night was Paula White. She is an incredible and powerful woman of God and she has been through so much and has been judged so much and so wrongfully! She taught that what we have gone through is “our stage” so to speak, our stage for our testimony to go out into the world and spread the word of God through our trials and tribulations. Anyway, THANK YOU for this and once again, I am SO PROUD OF YOU AND LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!! ❤

  2. Linda Killoran

    The need to strip off the façade faces all of us.

    I am thirsty for the truth you have and am blessed by your valor to present it.

  3. mylivingpower

    Oh Cheryl, I am so glad you’re stepping out to share this. We’ve been on a similarly unclear and not-simple journey with my 9 year old, adopted from foster care. Over 8 years we’d done everything spiritual, emotional, cognitive and pharmaceutical that we’d ever heard or read or considered… and she’s now been in residential psychiatric care for a year. But 6 months ago, we met a couple who run a large ministry in South America. They heard our story and sent us Ephesians to read. They opened our eyes to what it is not simply to pray for our daughter, but to do spiritual battle on her behalf. Our girl isn’t perfect now, some struggles remain. But they are a whispy shadow of the brutal reality of before. It has changed me, too. So speak out in this truth, sister. There are many more of us out there who need the honest words!!

    1. securelyheld Post author

      Rejoicing to hear of the LORD’s healing power in the battle. I am praying for your daughter’s continued deliverance.
      Trusting the LORD will continue to give me boldness to press forward in Him. Your encouragement blesses me more than you know. Only By His Blood, Cheryl


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